Lee Rigby

I still find it bizarre what happened in London, and as a fellow military man, I’m shocked. Shocked that he was killed in his own country by some nutcase, first running him over and then fucking trying to chop his head off. There’s no honor in that, a fucked up way to go for a man with his service record. And only because at that time, they were able to recognize him as a soldier. This honestly scares me, since sometimes I travel in uniform as well. I’ve had people spit at me, give me looks etc, but something like this…I could never expect that here, but I’m pretty sure Lee Rigby would’ve said the same thing. Just after the attack my mom called me saying I shouldn’t travel in my uniform anymore because you never know if some of the nutcases are here in the Netherlands as well. And sadly, I’m starting to agree with her. This is not the way I wanna go out. It’s pointless, sickens me to the stomach and makes all the hours spent in training and service go to waste. 

Lee Rigby I salute you, your service will be remembered, not just the disgusting way you went out.

Foul mouth V2

Fucking christ I have a huge fucking problem, and that is that I can’t stop cursing anymore, neither online nor irl.
I always were a foul mouth, but talking so much with people who inspire this behavior or talking in the same way to me has only sparked it.

Like a few days back, I ran into some girl from my high school at a train station and we just started catching up. So midway in the conversation we talk about something that I really hate with a passion, so I just said “oh my fucking god I goddamn hate it when those fucking morons do that” (in dutch of course, which I can assure you is even worse). See you just looked at me like she saw water burning and hardly said anything afterwards lol. 

But seriously, I need to tone it down because I’m driving my poor mom insane when I’m back home. I wouldn’t change myself for one fucking person, but my mom put up with so much of my crap that I’m almost obliged to do so :P This is gonna be fucking hard…

Q:you haven't been on in awhile and it scares me because I'm thinking you died and I really don't want that so let us know you're alive, ok? xoxo

Anonymous

Yo anon no need to be scared, this fucker won’t go down that easily ;)
I’m just a bit busy that’s all :) 

tl;dr ahoy

I’m just sitting in my bed and thinking here at 11pm, and I just realized that most of the friends I value the most live outside of my country and/or have never seen them irl. I can just be sitting here, stalking their pages, looking at their pics and get so emotional that I’m so lucky to know them. I KNOW this is not something people would expect me to say (ok maybe on here) since I’ve been to therapy for expressing my emotions better, but deepdown I’m really emotional, as in I can be really happy, enthusiastic, sad, loving, hating and whatnot.

Seriously, these people mean and meant so much to me now and in the past years, and I wouldn’t trade them for anything in the world.

On another note, it’s been a while since I’ve posted anything, mostly because I’m really busy with work etc, and when I’m finally on my laptop I chat a lot on fb or watch crappy series X)
Also my Chrome decided tumblr’s scripts should stop working and I’m too lazy to figure out so I have to use FireFox or IE to post something, also holding me back to post more lol.